I spent most of my free time today doodling. Drawing these little pen drawings that I have been craving making for a few days now. I’m not normally a person who draws, but it’s fun to do something different every now and then. Unfortunately this is not going to get me any closer to finding a job in Chicago. Actually, now that I think about it, nothing I’ve been doing in the past few weeks is going to get me any closer to finding a job in Chicago. I really need to change that soon. I’m going to need a job to move to Chicago so that I can support myself. It’s definitely time to suck it up and start applying for them. I just wish I could find something that doesn’t look, well, soul-crushing. I have a feeling that’s probably not going to happen though. It’s definitely time to just bite the bullet and find anything that will work. Fuck! I want to spend my time doodling and making things out of rhinestones to give to friends. I don’t want to spend my time looking for jobs in the financial services sector that I know I’ll hate before I even begin. I need to do a total 180 on my career at this point and I’m willing to do that, I just don’t know where to go with it all or how I would support myself in another way. I feel like if there are people who are able to do something more meaningful and support themselves without having to work a job they hate I should be able to figure out how to do that too. I’m smart enough that I should really be able to make that a reality if I just try. Hopefully I’ll be able to.