I enjoyed today. It was basically a slight variation on the same day I’ve been having over and over again since coming back to the cities not quite a week ago, but it was enjoyable none-the-less.

I worked on the birthday present I’m making for Liz, watched 30 Rock, took a nap and relaxed. The only thing different about today was that I met a guy from the internet for coffee. We met at a coffee shop a couple blocks down the street so I hobbled down there and met him this afternoon. I’ve been holed up in my apartment for the last few days taking pain pills and watching tv. I’ve gone out a couple times with Liz and Laura, but for the most part I’ve just been sitting around inside. This was the first time I’d met him. I forgot how much I hate being fucked up on pain pills and around other people. It’s even worse being around people I don’t know. I felt slow and out of place and like the world was moving faster around me than I could process. The conversation did not go very well because I was out of it. I’ve been chatting off and on for a couple months with this guy and wasn’t very excited about meeting him, but figured since I didn’t have much else going on I’d meet him for coffee for a minute. I don’t plan on seeing him again and really don’t mind that much that I was a boring person who couldn’t hold up a conversation when we met because I don’t have no interest in dating him or even really being friends. He was nice enough, but unless someone really piques my interest I’m not really interested in making more friends. And as far as dating goes, he just wasn’t really my type. He hasn’t texted me since we got coffee this afternoon so that’s good. I haven’t logged into the app because if he has sent me a message I’m going to have to decide how to respond to it. I just hate not being able to fulfill other people’s expectations or hopes and I don’t want to be a dick to anyone. If he asks if I want to get together again I’ll just tell him he’s not my type, but that it was nice meeting him. It’s much better in my opinion to be upfront about that stuff than to lead someone on.

The present is so close to being done. I sent ST a text earlier tonight because I’m not sure I can give it away. It’s taken me forever to do and I’m afraid all that work won’t be appreciated. I still plan on giving it to Liz for her birthday, but I kind of don’t want to anymore. I have to give her something I’ve made at some point so it really had might as well be this. I’ve just grown kind of attached to it after all the hard work I’ve put into it….

Wow, so I’m more rambly than usual tonight. I did not time this well with taking all of my nightly pills so we’ll just blame it on the all the narcotics I’m on….. Night.