I have done next to nothing the last couple of days. I’m not that concerned about it, but I need to start being productive soon and looking for jobs so that I won’t have to go back to my old one. I’ve been pretty doped up on the pain medication which makes it really hard to concentrate on anything for very long. Tomorrow I’m going to try to cut back on how much of it I’m taking so I can hopefully avoid taking as many naps as I’ve taken in the last few days. It seems I’m never up for more than a couple hours before I need a nap. I’m getting frustrated with it all and am starting to feel a little stir crazy.

I keep thinking about what a dick my manager is. He scheduled a meeting with me at 3:30 pm on Thursday. I had no intention of staying that late, but did since he’d scheduled the meeting and I didn’t really have any reason to leave earlier. In the meeting he then was angry that I haven’t taken more initiative to learn more and push myself on the new team. He did admit that it’s partially his fault for not continuing to check in with me and see how things were going. I don’t really understand what he expected. I hate the job and he moved me to a new team. Did he really think I would then all of a sudden be completely engaged and transform into this superstar employee? What a dumbass. I definitely did the right thing by keeping my mouth shut. He clearly wanted me to open up more about everything and have an honest conversation about the situation, but as I’ve learned in the past 4 years at that job you can’t trust a snake and he’s definitely a snake.