Today was especially hard at work. I’m not sure if it was the extra day off we got or what, but it was tough being back in my cubicle.  I was in a pretty foul mood all day, but at least I survived it.  I also had a fun night since I got to see my Jaime (who I never get to see anymore) and Will cut my hair.  Afterwards I met Laura at Acme and saw a really funny show.

I saw my Dr. about my knee last week.  She told me my knee hasn’t been healing and that the screws she put in are not how she wants them so she needs to go in and replace them when she does the other knee.  This news was only slightly softened by the fact I took it while staring at the ridiculously hot medical student from Italy who happened to be following her around that day.  Afterwards I also got her athletic trainer to agree to writing my leave from work for 9 weeks instead of 6, so I guess the visit wasn’t a total loss.  Although I’m not counting that as a win until after the forms come back showing the time I’m getting off from work.

It’s been a very frustrating year going through all of this knee stuff – for many reasons.  Being on crutches and not able to do all the things I want to do is hard, but it’s also really tough having to show up at work everyday hating my job, but not able to apply for other ones because I need to stick around until I’ve gone through both knee surgeries (and the time off recovering).  At least the end is in sight now.  I have just over 20 more days of showing up for work and then I’ll be off and hopefully moving on with my life.  I can’t believe I’ve stuck around that unfulfilling job I’ve hated since pretty much the beginning for the last 4 years.  On the one hand it’s been a great job for many reasons.  It’s wonderful that I can bike, walk or take the bus to work and that I don’t have to spend time sitting in rush hour traffic.  I think about the person I was 4 years ago and have grown tremendously on a personal level since that time.  Having a job that doesn’t stress me out when I’m not at work has really helped.  I can just show up, work (although never very hard) and then leave for the day.  I’ve cherished the time I’ve been able to spend reading in the downtown Barnes and Noble after disappearing from my cubicle every morning (and a lot of afternoons), shopping at Macy’s or Sak’s, and just aimlessly wandering around the skyway or down Nicollet during the warmer months.  It seems that all the things I enjoy about my job have nothing to do with the actual work I’m doing.  The work I can’t handle because it’s redundant, uninteresting, and seems kind of pointless in the larger scheme of things.  I can’t wait to move on and find something more suitable to my interests and abilities and thankfully will be able to do that soon.  Hurray!